50/50

If you were to look at my browsing history or the devotionals I am following, you would see information related to finding God's will and free will.  While I am thankful for free will, sometimes I wish God would put BRIGHT and flashing signs in front of me.... several times... to tell me which way to go.

After my IVF cycle failed, I have been questioning God about what to do.  I guess the good thing is that I have choices, but the hard part is moving forward and not having any doubts about the path I have chosen.  Here are three different viewpoints I have encountered in my research about the freewill and following God's Will:
1) God will let us make our own decisions and will not stop us
2) We can make our own decisions, but God can help guide your path by opening/closing doors
3) It does not even matter which direction you go... as long as your heart is pursuing His

What do you think?

Dusty and I have been pursuing the Lord with all of our heart to find out what He is calling us to do.  A week or so ago we made the decision to go down one part of the path and really believed that the Lord had placed this blessing on our hearts.  Today we received a call from the doctor saying if we go down another path that we could have an outcome with a 50/50 chance at success.  Now the question is... is this a temptation guiding us off course?

Man, I wish I could describe the fear of trying to make a decision when I don't even know if I have it in me to try something again with only a 50/50 chance.  I am exhausted, spent, done, finished....

At the end of the day, it is not about exhausting every medical option available, but about what the Lord has chosen for Dusty and I to accomplish in this world.  To me, only God can answer this question and make it clear.  Please pray that the Lord continually guides us down the right path.

At the end of the day, this is between Dusty and I with the Lord.  But, we would LOVE your continued prayers!!!!!!!!!!!